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Reaching for the Stars and Fulfilling a Dream

Ten years into my Stage IV Ovarian Cancer journey and I continue to find ways to thrive. One of these is actually believing in myself enough to pursue a dream I have had since I was a child, which was to write a book. I have done it!

Several years ago I wrote a master's thesis. I thought that would suffice as the need to "write a book," thinking I would get to it when I retired. I guess that came true too, as I finally took my medical retirement this past fall. So, I retired and then I published a book I wrote almost five years ago.

This book is a cozy mystery about a character named Elspeth James who has gone through a trauma. Yes, I suppose in some ways she was an analog of me: an early-career-woman who was struck down with a traumatic experience (metastatic cancer in my case; an assault in hers) from out of the blue, and she had to learn to live with her experience through finding a new way of being.

The nice thing about cozy mysteries is that there is nothing overly violent or gratuitous in the writing; it's mostly depicts the curiosities of every day relationships in a small community having to deal with an out-of-the-ordinary situation. This is for me such a metaphor for living with cancer.

I called my book View from the Lamplighter Inn, and it is available as both an eBook and a print copy via Amazon. If you have Kindle Unlimited, you can read it for free.

I hope you enjoy it--I certainly am delighted that I actually followed through to fulfill a dream!

A photo of my book, View from the Lamplighter Inn, by Julia Moss (online) or Julee Pauling (print)

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Here is the link: https://www.amazon.ca/View-Lamplighter-Inn-Julia-Moss-ebook/dp/B09SZ2HKL5/ref=sr_1_1?crid=33RP0AUBQIPMA&keywords=view+from+the+lamplighter+inn&qid=1646144376&sprefix=view+from+the%2Caps%2C77&sr=8-1
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Congratulations on the book.
Some local libraries allow authors to come and speak...or have their book featured.
How many many people said they wanted to write a book. But you did !
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Thanks, Sterling. Yes, it's true. I have a couple of speaking events lined up; none yet at the local library. Perhaps some time over the next few months.
How awesome! I wish you success in your new endeavor.
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Congratulations. Look forward to reading
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Thank you, Neal! That's so nice. I hope you enjoy it.
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Awesome!!! So nice that it is not a blood and gore story!
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Exactly... the idea is that one feels GOOD while reading it. :)
I’ll order my copy today! So good to hear from you. But you and I were a bit out of sync this time. Usually when I think of you, you post within a few days. This time it was over a month and now I know why; publishing is a lot of work. For some reason I kept seeing a nice beach and thought you were on a trip to Hawaii or somewhere similar. Your book title reminds me of my favorite fiction writer, Maeve Binchy, so I know I’ll enjoy reading it. Enjoy retirement (more time to write books 😉). Hugs to you and God bless😘.
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Thank you very much, Marcia! Your message was s such a treat to read today. No beaches for me, lately, except in my dreams. It is very wintery right now, in Ottawa! I loved reading Maeve Binchy, too. I do hope you enjoy my humble book. God bless you as well.
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Your book arrived today! going to enjoy my weekend!
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Fabulous, Helen! I can’t wait to hear what you think. So exciting 😊
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A bold title, I know.

Yet, not; not really. It's just simply true -- I feel like I am WINNING! Winning what, you might ask? Well, I'm still alive, still thriving, once again in remission (for the fourth time in ten years). 

I could give you the details of my day-to-day existence, but that's not the interesting part.

The interesting part is that I am back to defining my life, I am defining dreams and pursuing them. I am feeling inspired and challenged, energized and hopeful. And this hope isn't predicated on staying alive, not only that--it's a feeling of hope that I do and have mattered, and that my life has and continues to matter. In ways big and small, in all of its this-ness and ordinariness, my not-so-big life and yet not-so-small life still feels like an incredible gift.

I hope this does not sound pat, nor self-importantly deluded. It has been several years since I felt I could dream again, after having lost all my dreams to cancer, and ten years since I felt like I could pursue lofty goals, again. Hope! Love! Believing in the uknown and the not-yet, for all that might one day be! Yes! This is again a part of my experience. Hurrah!


Susan J threw a punch at your cancer.
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This is a very uplifting - winning! - post. Congrats on achieving such a positive state of mind!
So good to hear from you, as always. Whether you are doing fun stuff or just sitting home and reading, what you do will always matter. You sound content and I think it’s all due to the fact that rather than sit around and worry, you went on quests and pursued enlightenment. I’m always happy to hear from you. Blessings.😘
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I'm so glad you are dreaming again!!
Glad you feel more positive…that’s very important.
I love your message. I am so very happy for you.
Yay you!!
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You are awesome! Can't wait to read your book.
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Vital Info


July 10, 2011

Ontario, Canada

June 15, 1976

Cancer Info

Ovarian Cancer

June 28, 2011

Stage 4

over 6.1

Grade 3


The losses of my future and a good deal of my present.

You are as much about what you don't do as what you do.

You all do it. :)

Complementary therapies of massage, acupuncture, diet, meditation, yoga, tai chi, prayer, and naturopathic medicine.

supraclavicular (aka scalene) lymph nodes, both right and left; pelvic, abdominal lymph nodes; fallopian tube. Brain 2016. Para aortic lymph nodes 2018.

They all want my tissue.

The gift of your presence is especially important.

Seek out all possible solutions.

Accept all the love and support that comes your way and marvel.

November 23, 2011

April 11, 2012

Twice so far.

I found a lump in my neck above my collarbone, and I had been having shortness of breath when speaking and exercising. Also tightness of upper chest when exercising.

TBD, Feb 2016 - Brain

Ovarian Cancer Walk of Hope http://my.e2rm.com/personalPage.aspx?registrationID=1242519&langPref=en-CA&Referrer=http%3a%2f%2fovariancanada.org%2fWalk-of-Hope%2fHome


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